You still live in me....

I still hear your voice. I still miss your hands.
Today again I live withing your traces.
I still see you. I still feel your warmth.
Today again I live within the time spent with you.
In some stranger who passes by.
In leaves that fall and dance in the wind.
In the evening wind that touches my cheek.
You are in everything I see, hear and feel.
How about you ? How about you ?
Do you feel the same way ? How about you ?
I still feel you.
Like this, even at the moment when I'm singing this song.

------ Anonymous

Bansuri (The flute)

Aaj jab bansuri bajayi
To teri hi dhun aayi

Aisa laga jaise tere hothon ne suron ko chu liya
Saath mera kam jyada tera diya
Maine aankhein band ki to tu hi najar aayi
Aur us waqt ki yaad aayi

Sochata hoon kab tak chalegi ye jindagi
Bina tere tanha aur maayush si....

Her name

Whenever I see her name
it brings forth memories unbound
and i long when the physique is not found

it seems i have lost all the drives
life seems devoid of purposes
equally treating days and nights
i question the survival....

all the strength seems to be lost
and i just wait for the moments to be over
for 'the moments' to be over.......

Introspection

Bura jo dekhna mein chala,
Bura na miliya koi,
Jo dil khojo apna,
Mujhsa bura na koi.

-- Kabir ke dohe

English version:

When I went out to find bad/ evil
I couldn't find anyone
when i searched my heart
i found that there was nobody as bad/ evil as me!!

Clinging will remain

In the busiest of the places,
During darkest of the nights and sunniest of the days,
I couldn't let go of her thoughts,

Rather I always found her,
Close by, nearer than ever,
As if she was caressing me,
With her thoughts & smiles,

Never I think will come the day,
Devoid of her thoughts,
Clinging will remain,
Making me suffer,

Buddha might smile yet he may realize,
Bearing fruits of the karmas and having to suffer,
Will create compassion and make me see her everywhere,
She will always be part of my persona
Guiding me to may be salvation.....

Missing suddenly

Suddenly i missed you very much
didn't realise what was the cause
thought a lot about you
leaving not even things few
hoping you are fine
and not having troubles even divine
wishing you all the good I can
and asking troubles to be mine
i feel love indescribable
transcendental & imperishable

संगमरमर की इबारत से,
जो लिखी है तुमने वो कविता,
युग बीत गए बीतीं सदियाँ,
पर आज भी है वह सुन्दरता

- taken from Mr. Amitabh Thakur's poem

Miles to go before I sleep

whatever i held dear wasn't for me
whatever i wanted didn't come to me
'need' was met but 'want' was left
the life's journey has been adventours at best
distances to cover before the dusk
and i remember 'the Frost'

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.........

The mystery

In the moments of greatest despair
someone to hold on for care
expecting a comfortable gesture
I long for the presence

yet not finding someone
i question
what is the purpose
of all this suffering
of all this carving

what is the purpose of life
with all this strife
what are we supposed to gain
to relieve us from all of our pain

why do we mingle
just to become 'single'

yet the question remains unsolved
tempting me to resolve
the mystery
continued from 'the history'

the journey so far

I had been wandering searching for something
knowing a bit and trying some with 'the wings'
the more I searched and the more I was sure
the more I felt complacent and may be bored

then suddenly an acquaintance appeared
finally to disappear
making me question
the strength of my conviction
I centred my thoughts around 'the one'
finally to realise it wasn't meant to be
my purpose was somewhere else

'the one' is just a stage
to bring me out of the cage
to let me learn how to let go
not to hold on
and to follow my dreams
to accept whatever it may bring

it is easier said than done
yet I will have to try
even if I may to have to cry

the journey of life
is full of strife
this recognition is the most liberating position

this journey so far
has been kind of a war

The Butterfly

She came with full of colors
building lots of expectations
i, in my ignorance, broke the barriers
which had kept me covered
from the harsh realities of relations

she went away creating false hopes
i clung to them with lots of aspirations
when finally the reality struck
i was left with several questions
why the purpose has always been to hurt
play with my emotions
has my karma been so inappropriate
that it lacked responses appropriate

no more wait for the responses
now life will be a journey with only hopes for others

may the Buddha always be with her
showering the blessings ever
now it is the end of the path
so religiously followed by many before and many after
wish better luck to others
with the hope that you don't suffer

May the butterfly flutter
flying long distances with beautiful wings as always as ever

Today's Dream

today i saw a dream
the sufferer was someone known to me
i woke up with perspiration
and thought a lot about my aspiration
how would I like to live in this world
the conception about pleasure seems to be flawed
how can i gain
when someone suffers from pain

i rushed to him after a while
told him friend i am here and you should smile
we will work out something together
the pain should not make you suffer forever
i saw comfort in his eyes
sense of gratitude in his expressions
i thought of his sufferings
felt happy with my knowledge offerings and expectations of new things

Her Arrival!

she came like a beautiful breeze
full of hope, full of dream
making me question all my beliefs

nothing i knew could answer 'the question'
making me confused more than ever

i sit here talking to myself
was it my destiny or just a dream?

i could smell her even in her absence
longing to feel her physical presence

not knowing when will i meet her again
i sit here talking to myself
was it my destiny or just a dream?

Holi Mubaraq

Gul ne gulshan se gulfam bheja hai,
Sitaro ne aasman se salaam bheja hai,
Mubaraq ho aapko holi ka tyohar,
Humne dil se yeh paigam bheja hai...

Jab jab teri yaad aayi..

Jab jab teri yaad aati hai
Dil maayush sa ho jata hai
Aankhein kuch nam ho jati hain
Kambakht dil bhool nahain pata hai

Aur man ye kah uthata hai..
Tu aayi to kyon aayi
Jab tujhe jana hi tha

Dard dil ka kyon diya
Jab marham lagana hi na tha..

Jab jab teri yaad aayi.....

Laut Ke Aayenge...

Ehsaas Bahut Hoga Jab Chodh Ke Jayngane,
Roenge Bahut Magar Aansoo Nahi Aayenge,
Jab Saath Koi Na De To Awaz Hame Dena,
Aasma Par Honge To Bhi Laut Ke Aayenge

Chupana Parta Hai

Is bedard zamaane se har gam chupana padta hai
Zakhm hazaaron ho dil pe fir bhi muskurana padta hai.

Haseen

Duniya mein hasin aur bhi hain maula,
Par jab usne apna ghoonghat khola,
To chand bhi sharma ke bola,
Ye raat ki chandni hai ya din ka shola

Jab bhi khyal aaya..

Jab bhi khyal aya to apka aya,
Aankhein band ki to khwab apka aya,
Socha kar loon yaad khuda ko pal do pal,
Par jab hoth khule bhi to naam apka aya.

Koi tut sa gaya hai....

Bahut udas hai koi tere jane se,
Ho sake to laut ke aa kisi bahane se,
Tu laakh khafa sahi magar ek bar to dekh,
Koi toot sa gaya hai tere ruth jane se